hello bloggie! today is an eventful and memorable friday! ahhaha. in some ways its the good kind of memorable, and in some way its the bad kind of memorable. anyway, let's start with my week first.

i am super proud of myself lah! i was so super productive, and i finished all the tutorials and other homework that was supposed to be gone through this week, so everyday this week when i go home i have nothing urgent to do, so i went to sleep at 10+ :D so end up i slept in class less. okie maybe part of it is due to the help of my m&ms too :D but i think i eat too much sweets and chocs liao. cuz my irritating phlegm is back AGAIN! after hiding for a few months it is back with a vengeance. now sometimes its so thick that i feel like vomitting. grrrahh. although i feel very bad. i slept through the whole of econs lecture on tuesday. and there's only one econs lecture every week.. hahaha. so this week is my turn to laugh at the other ppl and say "eh, you never do so&so tutorial ar?!" LOL. but i think i went overboard liao. otherwise my class also won't target me until like that lor. haha. sian. i'm very sad now. horrible zeke anyhow spread scandals about me and i can't even deny it cuz unlike the previous few times this is based on something true. zzz. haix. 1year and slightly more of not having any 把柄 in others hands, and now when life should be peaceful this happens. but zeke was saying i'm very sarcastic. i got very sarcastic meh. i've always been like that and nobody say anything leh. i think is he too sensitive liao. okie i shall try not to be so sarcastic to him. hahahhaa. :D:D keyword being TRY. and i realised not having ppl from wushu in my class is good. cuz like that i can block bad things from leaking out. hahaha. i realised my containment skills very good :D:D geeee

anyway, wednesday was the day when we got our junior class. sad 10S7F is SMTP, so we don't get them :( so basically 09s7F is the first and last 7F class to be in apollo. hahaha. then anyway we kope 7N's junior class and when i told ivan that he was still saying they want their 7N back. haha cuz they weirdly got 6H. but oh well... this year's senior-junior class system is very screwed. the classes jump all about, even when they're the same alphabet. then we had SMJ during CT session. hahaha i must confess, up til now i only rmb the names but not the faces. i only rmb 2 faces in the whole of my junior class. and sadly enough, next week when they change into their hwachong uniform i'll forget who they are again. hahaha. this morning very embarrassing. cuz i boarded 67A, then have one girl in nanyang uniform was like smiling at me when i walked by. then i thought she's my junior class one. so i smiled back. but apparantly she wasn't. hahaha. okie lah at least its not something even more embarrassing like waving or anything. maybe she'll think i'm just a naturally friendly person. LOL.

and then monday and thursday had H3. the syllabus is finally coming to sth that i've never learnt before, and i like when we go through tutorials. cuz i have the "enlightened" feeling. hahaha. cuz really when he go through the qns then everything like suddenly very clear liao. :D hopefully that will be the case when i take my exam. hahaha. and i must repeat this again, even though i told alot of ppl liao. the lecturer super slack! cuz monday i had to leave early to go rehearse for CNY performance, then i was telling the lecturer in a very apologetic tone that i have to leave early. then he happily tell me that its perfectly alright, i can leave anytime i want. and then when ppl come in late they said sorry to him, and he was totally happy and saying "oh you know you can come anytime you want and leave anytime you want." i was like zz..

anyway this week feels a bit weird. cuz now we're the oldest in the school. and seeing ppl who are taller than me (and its not just guys. its girls also) that are younger then me very weird. somemore they wear same uniform. cuz last time although sometime we'll see high school kids who are taller than me, but they will be wearing the high school uniform, so not that weird. but now, its like young kids like shunxiang, shannon they all are now J1 liao! and i was still happily calling them kids. hhaha. okie cannot call them kids liao, since apparantly i'm not very old after all. hehehe. and i realised that 人不可冒像，海水不可抖量 is really very true. okie did i choose the correct chinese words? i realised my chinese is a bit rusty liao. hahaha. cuz its like last time we always say shannon very dao. but i realised actually he's not lor. then last time we say shunxiang very nice. but recently he like change liao leh. i dunnoe if its just because he grew older or something, but i wonder if its because of the rumour between him and huifang. rumours are scary things actually. haix. okie i'll wonder about this problem another time. hahaha.

okie yay we finally reach friday. hahah. today's GP lesson was the most interesting GP lesson i had in a long long time. cuz dr ang was asking us about our ccas, and then she have very funny comments. like she keep asking xinying and cherie what are their opinions on their skimpy outfits. although i agree with xinying, i think modern dance's outfit is even more skimpy. hahaha. then she talked to us about her life experiences and why she became a teacher. and there goes 1.5hr of GP lessons! woohoo! hahaha we should have this kind of GP lesson more often. i didn't fall asleep at all. :D:D whheeeeeeeee. haix i'm tired liao alright i shall go sleep. will continue tmr.

hahah hi bloggie. today is saturday :D i'm happy cuz i got to eat nice breakfast :D i went out to 163 that coffee shop to have porridge :D geee. anyway, let's continue my interesting friday :D then after school ended, walked around and chatted with different ppl. and then after that went for dinner with wanngee and xinyun at coro. then walked back to school with nice wanngee who accompanied me back even though she's going cc and not back to school. then i went to the hall to find michmich, cuz horrible haidee who promised to go with me to campfire suddenly pangseh me to go bomb her junior class. HMPH. i very sad liao. :(:( then i missed apollo's flag and performance! so sad :( i only saw artemis's fac dance, then ares and athena de flag, performance and fac dance. and i realised i know alot of ppl that are fac comm dance ics(and they were all from 202). patricia is artemis, jiaqi is athena, bernice is apollo. but i dunnoe who's ares dance ic leh. hhaha. and i realised the performance items are all rather typical lor. the gist is repeated year after year. maybe just change abit of small things only. anyway, artemis won flag and apollo won performance.

then after that we went to the central plaza. poor me lost michmich and then i feel very extra hanging with licheng, xinying and huifang cuz they same og de. plus there's alot of other ppl from their og. but hahaha luckily i found eyu :D:D although i abit bright lah, but okie nvm i'm sure the guy understands. otherwise then he's not worth it. LOL. hahahaha. now then i realise what eyu's dad said that time when i went her house is rather true. cuz the guy when i first saw him i was like "eh looks familiar." then at first i thought is her class de. but then eyu say "his class only guys come so he asked me to dance with him" (although i think this is just an excuse) so cannot be her class de. then thinkthink somemore i finally rmb who he is while they were dancing. hahaa. LOL. but nvm that's not the zhongdian. the most fun part was when eyu and i went to tutu train around central plaza. cuz only we 2 mah, so we anyhow latch onto any trains in order to find minying. cuz its seriously very hard to find her lor got so many ppl. and the guys are scary. while we were running about, there was this area which is very small around the fire lah. then we were there waiting for traffic to clear, then from the left one train rush by and were pushing against us. then from the right another train came and squash us.er... hahaha. but actually that part is quite fun lor.

anyway, that's not the main point. although it was fun, but it was the things and emotions that was flitting through my brain the entire night that makes yesterday night memorable. i shan't write it all here, cuz i dunnoe how to express it also, but just that the feelings reminded me of the "friendship is just like a kite" post i wrote in the beginning of last year. true, some kite will fly far and the string may even break, but some strings are just thicker and stronger, and even though they fly far, they rarely snap. i'm glad that i have some strong friendships. i shouldn't be so greedy as to expect all of my friendships to be superglue kind of strong. 一生中，能够找到一个知己已是难能可贵了.

我一直告诉自己要为自己而活， 但至今我还是为了别人，而放弃自己。 我不要再被别人当作理所当然了。 老实说，世界上不会有完全了解你的人， 也不会有为你而活的人。与其为了别人舍弃自己，不如舍弃别人。所以说，朋友们都认为我很奇怪，为什么老是bear来bear去。 但是，对我来说，他们是唯一不会出卖我，不会利用我的朋友。只要问心无愧，挺胸面对问题，成败与否，名利皆如浮云。 同样的，只要问心无愧， 不管我有没有所谓的“朋友”，我的一生都已经不算白活了。

i dunnoe, maybe i'm thinking too much. oh well. i should wait and see then. byee bloggie. my post very long hor.

hello bloggie. since its friday i've decided to be more positive and post something positive :D and weirdly enough how come when i post happy things and advertise on my msn nick nobody tag me, and yet when i post unhappy things and never advertise ALOT of ppl come and tag ar? but anyway thank you ppl who have asked me to not be emo liao :D

anyway my week has been boring. everyday rush and rush to do the tutorials. and having to hear ppl ask me "eh you do so&so tutorial already anot?" and i'll reply with an exasperated "NO" thanks lor all those. rub salt into my wound lah. hmph. blehbleh :p the only interesting part is i fell asleep during GP test AGAIN. sian. i think there's sth wrong with me. but nvm apparantly today's GP test isn't a test after all. yunjia said that its a practice only. hahah. i think that friday GP lessons are the worse. considering that the first friday we had essay test, and it came back 23/50, and today we had compre test/practice whatever and i think i'm going to fail again. cuz my eyes were closing and i was still writing away, meaning i probably wrote crap. hahah. and the j1s are very irritating!! they were cheering away while we were doing our compre test/practice and i was falling asleep and then after that from my position i can look out from the window and see central plaza. zz. mean i was very distracted. i even saw aoyuan walking across central plaza. haha. okie lah no lah its just i'm very easily distracted so i must blame ppl. hahahaha. friday lessons are the worst lah! hmph

luckily today when i fell asleep it wasn't very obvious. cuz i think i only had my head on the table for less than 5 mins. not like the other time i slept for quite long, until everyone in class stare at me and caused me to wake up. hahaha. but that time no teacher also lah. today got teacher, so even if i fell asleep for very long the class won't stare at me. haha. somemore last time i sat right at the side nearest to the teacher's table.

and i think i very evil this week. i was quite mean this week. actually i don't mean it, but i dunnoe if ppl think i mean it. sorry to those that i was mean to unintentionally! i really don't mean it. actually its very easy to see if i mean the words that i say one leh. if i was saying something horrible i'll say it very softly and in a very low voice. otherwise if i was laughing and saying it very loudly then i'm just joking, so don't get offended k! :D

anyway, i think isyf is a bad influence. lol i came back from isyf being very gossipy. last time i was very gossipy also, but then last time i never knew so much gossip. then during isyf kenler(see i acknowledge u liao!), tseyean and zeke keep feeding us gossip so end up now we know alot. plus we're very free so we keep gossiping about random ppl also. hahaha. haha and everybody is diff leh. cuz kenler will happily tell us all the gossip he know, even when we don't even know the person. then tseyean will early in the morning come and say he have updates about whatever we were gossiping about the day before, then cuz mornings always alot of ppl and we quite busy mah, so cannot gossip then. so he will 吊我们的胃口 until like at night when we are rather free. and then zeke is the talk crap guy. let me reiterate this: 9.9999 sentences out of 10 sentences he say is FALSE! so think think think very hard before you believe what he say okie. and he anyhow say alot of things also lor. say until like i very scandalous now. zzz. hahahah. hmm i should go and blackmail ppl and say those that believe what zeke says will pay $5 extra the next time we pay class fund. and zeke himself will pay $10 extra. LOL. okie lah no cannot 滥用私权. i'm a very good bear one lor.

and i must clarify something! i never spread scandals about ppl lor. i very good girl one. i only spread things that spread to me. i don't start my own gossip de. wah i feel very sad lor everybody say i spread gossip about them :( so hurt my feeling. D:

oh and i think its very funny our teachers know about 高清电视, dingjie's strawberry, and how zeke harrasses the guys. LOL. seriously epic moment when ms wong talked about 高清电视 and when mrs ip (okie sorry last time write wrong) asked zeke not to harrass the guys. hahahahahha! dingjie's strawberry happened last week, but still it sounded very funny when i heard it. LOL

hmm what else do i have to say? i'm a bit sian now. alright i shall go cut my nails and then get ready to go cc training. byee bloggie. probably won't be blogging over the weekend, cuz i have alot of work to catch up on. hopefully some stress will get me working harder. and my class is having class party today! :( oh well nevermind...

这两天总是觉得非常低落， 不知为何。 可能是因为上个星期没上那么多节课，令我课业繁重，所以因为压力才会心情低落。但是我认为不止如此。 我一向来都挺能承受压力的。 应该是有其他因素吧。 虽然在人多的时候都能装出一副快乐的表情，但在没人的时候，我不能否认心里所感受到的寂寞。 希望这种感觉会快点消失。 我不想闷闷不乐的过活，这不是我的作风。

最近又有了被冷漠，利用的感觉。不知是我想太多，还是真的如此。希望是我想太多。否则，我们多年的友情就此消失，我也很舍不得。

okie. that's the emo part. let's talk about less emo stuffs. this afternoon, while i was going home, i saw a guy who looks VERY VERY familiar. i think he should be either j1 or sec4, since he doesn't look j2. then he took same bus as me, and dropped off at the same stop at me also. then as i was walking back home i keep thinking who he was. then i narrowed it down to xiaoshaoye. haha. my last time zhps violin junior. but strangely enough i can't seem to recall his name. haix old liao. but then i seem to rmb that he was quite a few years younger than me leh. how come so fast sec4/j1 liao? otherwise its just my brain playing tricks on me. haix. okie i should go ask shubei or yeecheng first. cuz they should rmb him, probably better than me since they're younger than me. hahaha. oh or ask jingwei, but that's provided i see him around. i always see him at times when i least expected to lor. hahaha. so means i'll forget to ask him. zzz. oh well nvm can ask next time. or maybe i should just go up and ask the guy if he was from zhps jiu hao liao, instead of musing over it now.

anyway, as i was eating dinner my mother was talking about the construction work occurring outside my house. then she was saying construction workers are also very pro, cuz they must plan before hand where they want to move the hugehuge stones over to etcetc, instead of our perception that construction workers are stupid etc only good for manual labour. so from that i was thinking, actually all jobs are equal. there's no job that is considered better than others. although it is a common perception that doctors/lawyers are better occupations, because it takes academic achievement yadda yadda, but i realised academic achievement does not necessarily mean that the person is a better man. there are many jobs, for example cleaners, construction workers and so on that may not be less capable then others. true, their jobs may be "dirty" as compared to that of a doctor, but who's to say that the blood that the doctor touch, bacteria... is not dirty? the idea of dirty is subjective isn't it. not to mention, for lawyers who do things against their conscience for the sake of money, are even dirtier then, let's say, a toilet cleaner, isn't it?

okie anyway i should go bathe le i still have alot of work waiting for me. byee bloggie.

hello bloggie i'm back again! my mom woke me up at 8+ to eat breakfast but i'm still rather tired. :( oh well nvm let me quickly continue where i left off last night.

so anyway, monday after morning assembly we went to LT@SRC, had a welcome address by Mrs Tan, can't really rmb cuz i hit my head on the wall cuz i was sitting at the back. the LT is very bad lor. throughout the whole of the week, i hit my head on the wall at least 3 times. cuz there isn't enough seats for the facils to sit with the participants, so we had to put out chairs at the back of the LT, then there's one part where the wall juts out. so ya i stupidly hit my head repeatedly... okie lah it isn't very pain lah. when i hit myself with my gun its even more pain. haha. then after the welcome address me and jordan brought group 1 out for a tour of the college! :D hahah overall group 1 isn't bad, just that 2 *ahem* high school guys (okie i shall listen to wanngee and be nice and not call them kids) insist on calling me weird names. zzz. yay anyway let's list out the ppl in group one :D ada, jin hui, jia qian, monica, lynn, akmal, kei, tay, long, theron (aren't you touched your name appears here??! hahaha at first i wanted to be juvenile and purposely don't put your name one leh! but i decided that i'm more mature than you. HAHAHA) and songkai the participant group leader. hahaha. and i'm appalled that even chinese singaporeans can't pronounce my name. okie maybe for malays or indians its still acceptable. cuz in the past my teachers also can't pronounce my name. my yun they will pronounce as something else de. but then never before has ppl who can speak and listen to chinese pronounced my name wrongly. or maybe its just theron and songkai likes to make fun of my name. so evil!! LOL. haha. as usual jordan have a lot of things to crap about so hahah i don't mind. i just stand at the back and make sure nobody goes missing can liao. hahaha. after the tour went to central plaza to take a photo with us forming the letters ISYF. the final photo is quite nice, but then we had to stand there for a really long time. and the sun was coming out le lor. :( haix. then after the photo taking we herded the participants to the hall to have their brainstorm session. then after hanging around for a while i left with beverly to collect my bag from LT@SRC, then afterwards we went to find Dr Tan to give out the money for TAR to the respective group leaders and stationmasters and other facils. had to count alot of money lor.

oh ya just a side note, after one week away from my house, the outside has changed drastically. the heavy vehicles carpark has several huge vehicles meant for construction stuff (aiya don't laugh at me lah i don't know their name mah) yesterday night i didn't notice cuz by the time i reach home its dark already, but this morning when i woke up i was so shocked. haha.

after that went for lunch, and after lunch it was off to marina barrage for the amazing race. sadly it rained at first, but after a while the sky cleared up and we were able to continue with our amazing race without much trouble. hahaha i realised how my group is as bad as me at directions. LOL. haha the previous time when the facils went for the dry run we had colin who's a walking GPS, so we managed to get from station to station without much trouble. but then my group very sad lor. HAHAHA. (actually i was secretly laughing at them cuz i know the way already, since i've already played TAR before) they still had to ask passerbys for directions. LOL. but i must say my group really played fair lor. cuz me and jordan didn't give them any answers, and neither did we lead the way. unlike AHEM group 5 and group 8. the most we did was prompting them lor. tsktsk see lah group 5 and group 8 so horrible. so we ran about and then finally reached the flyer. haha oh and jordan and zhiyi were very amusing on the bus to marina barrage. they keep arguing about who's going to be first. LOL. when neither won. hahahah.

yadda yadda so the day and the night passed just like that. the most amusing part was our nightly gossip sessions. when we returned to our rooms to get ready to sleep right, yinghui and evelyn will surely have something to complain about their partners de. HAHHA. beverly isn't included cuz she doesn't come back to the room so early. i'm the nicest lah. i never complain anything about jordan at all. hahaha. and evelyn was very fascinated by jordan's "crowd-control ability", while yinghui thinks that zhiyi is very nice although evelyn keeps insisting otherwise. and i think i'm becoming like a sponge. i just absorb the gossip, and when pressed, the gossip will automatically come out. hahaha. and they didn't just complain on TAR night leh. they gossip about them practically every night. but of course lah, we got change gossip targets. if not everyday gossip about the same ppl will sound like we like them like that lor. hahaha. ahem. anyway since gossip isn't meant to be splayed out here on a blog, let's move on.

so tuesday was the Science Research Symposium, and me being a sad little token presenter had to hide backstage for the entire symposium. but whatever, i get to sleep backstage. hahaha. the others cannot cuz they sitting in the audience and it will be very rude to fall asleep. but one bad thing about sitting backstage is that the sound that travels to backstage is very muffled, and its hard to make out what the professors are saying so actually we didn't gain much from the symposium and nobel forum. sad. so anyway after culture hour we escorted the participants to the E2 classrooms, then after that we left to prepare for SRS. after that we went for lunch and then ran around doing some final errands. i feel like a little errand bear lor. hahaha.

after SRS we went out to get food. then we sat at a class bench and gossiped away. hahah. ken ler was feeding us a lot of information about ppl that we don't know and don't want to know. hahaha. then we keep trying to dig for gossip about the facils (cuz gossip is more exciting when you actually know the main characters) but then nothing came out of it cuz everything ken ler know we already know liao lor. after that we went back for nobel forum rehearsal, which was quite useless cuz throughout the entire thing the token presenters were not mentioned. mrs tan was talking about the changes made to the nobel forum, but nowhere in the changes were the token presenters mentioned. so basically we had to just stone around. which is very sad :(

hahaha then when it finally ended we rushed off to change out of our formal attire so that we can go to night safari. and edmund is nice! cuz he helped me to bring my blazer back to boarding school :D:D yayyay! then at night safari i noticed something interesting in my group, which i gossiped about with jordan. and apparantly he agreed with me too. but seeing what happened yesterday, i guess i was wrong... BUT nevermind, gossip is not meant to be entirely true de mah. hahaha. :D then its back to the boarding school. my group was playing the johnny johnny johnny whosh thingy on the way back to boarding school. and some of those spot the difference kind of games. hahaa. i fell asleep after a while (its either i've been sleeping too late, or i have some sleep deficiency illness) but i rmb thinking that its weird to think of my group as same age, or even older than me (eg jinhui) cuz its like most of the time for this kind of things right, the participants are usually younger than us de lor. hahah so i had to change my mindset quite abit.

wednesday was nobel forum, so it was hectic running about in the morning again. and with all the running about my court shoes' soles decided to drop off. luckily it only dropped off when the whole thing ended, otherwise it will be horrifying. hahaha. then after that sat in for my first focus dialogues. it was really weird lor. the discussion have totally no link with the quote lah. and xiaoyang also asked rather random questions. then i tried to stay in for the book circle, but it was super boring. i was still hoping there will be something interesting to learn from the books even though i didn't read it (cuz i'm not in DnA comm) but after awhile it got so boring i went back to boarding school. but before goign back i decided to go visit kaiqi they all. i'm so sad i feel so cheated. i didn't know that we can go for cca when we have nothing to do! if i knew that then i would have brought my wushu stuffs along le lor. hmph.

and at first i wanted to go bathe early de. but then just as i got my stuffs ready to go and bathe then my phone rang and i saw an sms from kaizhi which tells us to be at LT@SRC within 30mins. since i can't possibly bathe and then walk all the way to LT@SRC within 30mins without working up a sweat (then what's the point of bathing) i decided not to bathe liao. haixhaix. really lor make me so sad. :( and i was happily telling jiawen that i can bathe early. sian. jiawen so evil lor never pity me. haha. then we (ie yinghui and me) ran over to LT@SRC cuz we thought we're late liao. but beverly and evelyn keep saying they can't make it liao so we just abandoned them. hahah (HAH WEAKLINGS! lol) and after like 15mins of briefing we walked back to boarding school again. sian. and then we went for dinner. after dinner went back to bathe, then went down to ops room to see if there's anything to do.

i think my group very cute. they all hang around outside ops room cuz apparantly that's the only place with power points. so cute. hahaha. and before i went up to bathe zeke was horrible and keep saying i'm going to play soccer. GRAHHH. bleh. the guys are irritating lor. i talk to them they crap one round and i still don't get my answer de lah. after i bathed and came down to the ops room christopher was being lame and insisted that i purposely wear same shirt as him. zz. cuz i saw him wearing the destination hwachong shirt before i went up to bathe, but that is totally wrong lor! i already got my destination hwachong shirt out before i went for the briefing at LT@SRC. which is way before i saw him in that shirt lah. BLEH. :P hahaha. and we keep wanting to play cards, but cuz we cannot play in ops room, and we cannot go to the guys block and the guys can't come to the girls block so in the end we didn't really get to play. :( we only got to play cards on thursday when the participants were off at A*STAR. hahah.

thursday, went for cultural hour and focus dialogues. this time the discussion have more link lah. but i dun think i absorbed alot of the thigns they discussed. hahaa. and after that we went off to the library to do ops comm stuffs, like making the lists and all those. then we were free for a very long time. hahaha. so after eating lunch at college canteen, we went back to the boarding school to play cards. the guys were being VERY NOISY. and i got pissed off after awhile. and i started throwing things at them. hahah. cuz they seriously made a lot of noise leh. i can't even hear myself talking to evelyn who was sitting right next to me. and they very bad say i dunnoe how to play cards. hmph :( wahhh ppl so evil always say i dunnoe how to play cards. like the other time when i went zeming's house for housewarming, all of them laughed at me and say that my card playing skills very lan leh. evil ppl!!!!!!! hmph. :'( :'( hahaha. okie but nvm its good to throw stuffs at ppl occasionally. it makes you less angry. haha. then went off back to my room with evelyn to take an afternoon nap cuz i was angry and its best i don't stay around with ppl who pissed me off cuz i never know what will happen.

this week was a real test of my patience and tolerance lah. i had to keep reminding myself it wouldn't do anybody any good if i flare up but still i will get angry. so the only thing i can do is momentarily store it aside, and hope that it will disappear gradually. oh but the best thing was that i can tell ppl about what i was so pissed off with and i'm very glad that i have so many nice friends who advised me to keep my cool. THANK YOU! i'm sure you know who you are :D and its so nice to know that ppl agree with me too :D and i think i'm very funny i walked around boarding school many many times, sometimes with different ppl cuz i was busy complaining to them about whatever i was pissed off with. haha.

but i must admit that the guys are rather smart. they stayed away from me and didn't made me angry after i started throwing stuffs at them. actually i think i'm super easy to read lah. the noisier i'm, the better a mood i'm in. if my voice goes low and soft, then you better watch out and hide. but oh well. better to have ppl hide from me then have an volcano eruption right... okie i'm going to have lunch will be back later.

i'm back from lunch. D: my mom very bad leh abuse me. she feed me lousy food. plain porridge plus canned vegetables and canned peanuts. :( haix i'm so sad. how my poor bears must have suffered. anyway, back to thursday. i was very sad. cuz that day have host dinner, then i thought that we can go back home and i can bring some stuffs home for my mom to wash first plus eat curry chicken. see good food when i'm not home and lousy food when i'm home. 我命好苦啊！haix. poor me. but then dr tan said that ops comm cannot go out, cuz we have to stay in ops room to wait for the participants to come back and report. that's so sad right! so in the end we ordered pizza for dinner. i think that there's somethign wrong with the pizza we ate. cuz after that meal, for every meal everytime when i see the food there would be some slight nausea. okie but it wasn't that strong. so after that i ate very little only. but yay i'm fine now! :D:D okie or maybe its just the food isn't very appetizing. then afterwards when most of the facils are back liao ReACT comm decides to drop a bomb on us and tell us that we are going to perform a dance during D&D. (i just saw the video on facebook. it was a total failure lah!) i think most of us don't rmb the moves, and i was just following xinkai throughout. hehehe. that's the bad part about telling us to do stuffs suddenly. okie let me rush through the rest of this post quickly. my dad is scolding me cuz i've been sitting at the comp blogging for the whole morning and i'm not done yet. damn it. ahhh.

okie next friday. skipped focus dialogues, cuz was busy setting up the computer labs for the survey. and then after lunch i sent my group off to NTU before heading back to boarding school. learnt a bit of the dance. after wards kaizhi suddenly tell us to go back to college to clear up the E2 classrooms, and then we had to rush back to boarding school to learn the dance. it was really horrible and we were in a mad rush cuz most of us were in the advance party and we had to be ready by 4pm. and something totally unreasonable happened which i shan't say here since practically everyone knows about it liao. anyway you never know who might be stalking your blog right. anyway i concluded that mr cheong is very nice! hahah he's so funny he look on while ppl are chatting on msn and give his own input. LOL. even though he doesn't know the other party at all. lol. D&D was rather embarrassing cuz of the horrifying dance we did, but other than that it wasn't that bad. my group won most melodious prize. hahaha. considering that group 1 was the only group that sang for the entire performance, i don't know how they can don't win that prize lah. but its a bit weird. from what i know from my group members, the theme of the songs seem to be friendship. but some of the english translations make some songs sound like love songs. hahaha. but i think its really cool that they sang songs in different languages. have jap, thai, phillipines, chinese, english, malay. and everybody made the effort to learn the songs lor. that's nice :D

i must say, the food at raffles town club is not very nice. my table have ALOT of food left, cuz the whole table was girls other than kaizhi and jordan and tzehan. jordan and evelyn are emcees, so they didn't get to eat much. kaizhi and liuyi keep having to go and present prizes or act as ushers, so they didn't eat much either. so end up we couldn't finish most of the food. we keep goign to invite the guys to come over and help us eat, but then they very slow everytime by the time they walk over the nice food has been cleared away and so end up they didn't help alot. hahaha. and our facils table was split very far away lor. then took a lot of photos which seems to be on facebook but i'm too lazy to screen through all of them so i only saw some. hahaha. then after that went back to boarding school and cleared up parts of ops room so that when those early morning shift ppl come down the ops room will be presentable for checking out. then printed some stuffs for beverly and then went out to amphitheatre to join my group in playing truth or dare. hahaha but before playing much, the guards came out to shoo us (i joined in quite late cuz the printer was being evil and it takes very long to configure the laptop that was there. so had to wait for kaizhi to bring his laptop from his room.) back to our rooms cuz it was already past 12 midnight.

so i went back to sleep, and woke up at 5.45am yesterday to go down and play truth or dare again. sian i'm very sad. edmund turned up at the wrong time can. 他早不来，晚不来，偏偏在我被dare的时候出现. so end up a certain rather scandalous photo is in his camera now... and he happily show it to all the facils in ops room.... evil person!! hahaha. then after that i hanged around in the ops room, checked ppl out, brought the indonesia school to changi airport, waved goodbye to them. and then went to macs with jordan, before going back to boarding school. and the routine of checking ppl out continued.. unfair one lor. we cannot play cards, but the guys can play dota on the school laptops. NOT FAIR!! sian. then after that hang around a while, then my parents came to fetch me and then went to tampines to celebrate my grandmother's birthday. its like grandmother birthday season is back again! haha. the food isn't bad though. its definitely much better than the food served at raffles town club. well then after that i went home and have been scouring facebook and blogging since then. and a very smart guy told me that my blog url have a certain sexual euphemism to it. i totally can't believe it when i read what he said. my url has been there for, eh wait let me count: p6, sec1, sec2,sec3,sec4,j1 that's 6 years. and this is the first time i'm hearing that. TSK. someone has to get his mind out of the gutter. hahahhaa

oh well. its now 1.08pm. i should go and take my nap liao. byee bloggie! ethel rmb to word count hor! :D:D

hello bloggie!! i'm finally back! after 1 week of staying away from my bearbear-ers and bei-er, i can finally sleep with my favourite bear men and bei-er! yay :D and in my nice comfortable bed with the nice high pillow. and my mum said that she just washed bei-er too! means bei-er will smell super nice :D:D heeheee.

anyway although there were some hiccups during ISYF, but overall its still super fun! :D although there are some things which made me really pissed off, but nevermind, these stuffs are better left unsaid. anyway i've already released my anger by talking to ppl about it :D i still think talking to others is the best way to get over anger. hahaha. communication is very important de lor! hemhem. i shall not go in chronological order this time, cuz i can't exactly rmb what happened on each day anyway, so... just bear with me even though it will get a little messy. (just to warn you, this is going to be a SUPER LONG post, so skip if you don't want to know about my week)

but whatever, let me start at the beginning. went to HCIBS on last saturday night after going grandma's house to eat dinner. luckily my dad sent me, otherwise i don't know how i'm going to lug my heavy luggage up the long long slope. haix. hahaha. and i was seriously amused by how other people had totally huge luggages while mine looks rather small in comparison, especially when compared to honghui's bag. HAHA. today when she went back home it was even worse! LOL. we were all happily laughing at her expense and made her carry her heavy BAGS (note the s) so that we can take photos of that. hahahah. oh well anyway back to saturday night. then whined and complained about the tiny size of our t-shirts. (it was seriously horrible can!) then reported to ops room for briefing. but because of ppl like haomeng (who FOREVER turns up late), so our briefing started late. then after keeping the stuffs for keeping, we went back to our room and sleep. i was rooming with evelyn, yinghui and beverly, cuz we all ops comm.

wah talking about rooming makes me sad :( HCIBS biased de lor. they give the guys good rooms and give us lousy rooms. let me describe how good the guys room is. their rooms have air-con, personal bathroom, lights doesn't go out after curfew, and i think all of them only have one other roommate. then girls don't have air-con and only one measly fan for 4 ppl to share, only a public bathroom, lights go out immediately at curfew, and the worst is the toilet doesn't even have a rubbish bin. WHERE GOT GIRLS TOILET NO RUBBISH BIN DE LAH?! and then most girls have to share the room with 3 other roommates. see we very sad right!

oh btw sidenote. was talking to ethel ng just now. then she say that my posts are all very long. like between 700 - 1000+ words per post. LOL. its very funny that she go count the words in all my posts. HAHAHAH. btw ethel rmb to count this post when you're free and tag on my tagboard can. let's see if i can reach 1500 words. hahaha. how i wish i can write as well for my gp essays. then i wouldn't be failing gp liao. seriously its super embarrassing when you get good grades for the other subjects and then gp is a big fat E.

er anyway why i keep going off track? okie let's move back to isyf. so sunday which is Day 0, we took turns to go to changi airport and stay in ops room to carry out the check-in procedure. fetched the japan flight, and then generally did nothing interesting on sunday other then checking the ppl in. hahaha. although there were some communication problems in the beginning, i think the general thought was that we were successful in putting up a good show :D dinner was definitely better with the participants there. can you imagine how horrible our breakfast and lucnh was, without the participants there??! it was seriously horrible. the bread is stale, the mee taste is super strong. after eating that meal i really pity the boarders. hahaha. the food is even worse than nanyang boarding school lah! at least the bread at nanyang boarding school isn't stale. okie then monday i skipped morning assembly cuz i had to go to SRC to move the posters around and count them. haix sian. hahaha. then after that went to LT to wait for the rest to come and then went in for the briefing. hahahaah yuhan funnily came without his isyf shirts cuz he took the wrong bag with the wrong sizes. LOL. he got female m size instead of male m. HAHAHA. i realised i very bad. keep laughing at others misfortune. haha. oh well. nvm. haix. my stomach is rumbling. i'm hungry and sleepy :( okie bloggie i'll go sleep first. its 11.30pm now... i'll continue the post again tmr. i have been sleeping after 12.30am or at 1.30am for the past few days lah. i hate staying up! hmph :( i must go get my sleep cycle normal again before i go to school on monday, so that i won't fall asleep in class (okie.. i'll try not to fall asleep in class) and i heard that my class PE lessons for this term is swimming! bleh. this sucks :( haix whatever byee bloggie i'll come back tmr to continue. anyway ethel don't word count first hor. add in the other post and count. hahahaah :D thanks!!

hello bloggie. just saw my new timetable. yay i like the new timetable. cuz we end school very early! :D yeeeeeeheeeeeeee. hahaha. its like returning to nanyang that kind of timing. but i realised quite sadly that i'll still go home late due to H3 and wushu. cuz i end earliest on monday, 1pm. but then monday and thursday have H3 from 4 - 6. :( :(. then wednesday also quite early 2pm, but then got wushu again. so only have tuesday and friday go home early at 2 - 2.30pm. haixhaix. but nvm, after june it won't be that bad le, cuz by june i would have taken my H3 exam, and then comps would be over le. :D yayyies! hahaha. oh and on second thoughts about my vulgarities post, i have decided that to make sure that i don't say weird things that are very vulgar, i shall say weird things that i invented myself. meaning there's no such word, but i shall use it as i like. hahaha! :D okie back to going home early, means i can even go home to have lunch! hahahaha. okie lah maybe monday only, since monday is the only day which is still near lunch time. the rest of the days abit late le lor. go home eat lunch will become eat snack liao. haha. yay yay then my mom can cook my favourite chao fan! :D okie that's still 6 months away i shouldn't be so happy. haha.

anyway, today was reading ST (see i'm such a good little bear read so much newspaper lor. haha) and then there's this article about the macdonalds toy. you know recently they are selling those doreamon (issit spelled like that?) toys. then each toy is a different animal from the 12 sheng xiao. but weirdly enough they removed the pig and replaced it with cupid. although CU-PID de PID part sounds like PIG, but still its not a pig. so got ppl complain why they so weird purposely take out the pig, so some ppl who say they want to collect the whole 12 shengxiao series can't collect the whole set. then macdonalds say that its because pig is a sensitive animal, because of the muslims. but seriously, its just a toy. does that mean that muslim can't appreciate the fact that the pig is present in the 12 shengxiao??? i think macdonalds is just over-reacting. if that's the case right, that they have to be sensitive because of religions, then shouldn't they not have the cow doreamon also? cuz the cow/bull is considered sacred by hindus, then if they make the cow into a toy for ppl to play with it will be disrespectful to the hindus isn't it?

anyway yesterday went for training at school and at cc. wah seriously next time cannot go for so many trainings in one day liao. really very tiring lor. my arms and legs are aching liao. somemore yesterday we didn't do much jibengong leh. we were doing taolus most of the time. but yesterday i lian my taolus alot! yay! :D and i've tried to smoothen out my moves liao. :D and yesterday's training in school is seriously scary. alot of ppl from high school turned up and most of us turned up also. so end up ALOT of ppl. when we doing jibengong that time when you look over from the other side its very scary. hahah. oh and i think yesterday is international free day. LOL. cuz alot of ppl came for training. which is rare. but i still think its so unfair that high school starts school at the same time as us! so not fair! bleh. :( okie i must be qinlao, cuz next two weeks i can't go for training, so must try and rmb what i learnt yesterday. :D and tmr is international birthday day lah! so many ppl birthday. i was shocked when i saw my facebook yesterday. 5 ppl having birthday tmr leh. hoongjia, toh peiying, sandy, sam chia, steph tan. my phone only knows that sam chia having birthday. LOL. hehhehe

okie byee bloggie i shall go study math. and another good news! bio test won't be coming too soon, at most on thursday, so i can focus my attention on maths now. ahhaha.

hello bloggie! i've decided to blog something reflective today. hahaha. since my week is rather boring doing work and studying so i shan't blog about my week. hahahah.

last sunday there was this newspaper article in zaobao, that was talking about the various vulgarities in dialects. and how ppl uses it without discrimination, cuz most of the time they don't know what the exact meaning is. so i was reading and i was appalled that i myself was being vulgar without meaning to. cuz its like i refrain from using vulgarities like shit, fuck etcetc but i'll still use wahlau that kind that i deem to be "not so vulgar". but after reading the article i decided to stop using all sorts of words in languages that i don't understand. cuz sometimes actually we don't mean to speak vulgarly, but because everyone is using it and it seems to take on a new meaning, but actually its still vulgar. just like how wahlau refers to a certain part of the male anatomy. i was thinking, why on earth would i want to refer to a part of the male anatomy when i'm speaking?

just like how ppl like to say shit for the smallest thing. every few moments then jiu "shit shit shit" why on earth would ppl want to refer to shit when dealing with things? especially when now its so common. for every thing they will say "shit" and then imagine this. you're happily eating something, and your friend or whoever thought of something bad and then he/she suddenly "SHIT!" if its really something life threatening or whatever, its still 情有可原, but if its for something as small as forgetting to do something, and yet it brings up the image of shit for your eating companion, and spoils the appetite of your eating companion, then that's horrible of you isn't it.

and many of the common vulgar words that teens use nowadays are in dialect. and according to the newspaper article, most of them referred to sex or related terms. although i dunnoe why ppl will want to come up with terms like that, but still its weird. so the next time ppl keep using a term that you don't understand, do ask and clarify before you start using it yourself. and btw, asking and clarifying does not refer to asking your friend who used it, cuz 99% chance what they know is wrong too, if they are using it freely. i still rmb the other time i asked my mom what "guai lan" means, cuz i keep hearing evelyn use it and then bel and joanna tells me its a very bad word. but exactly why issit bad i don't know. and my mom got very angry with me lah! okie but at least better she get angry with me for asking then i use it indiscriminately. btw if you want to know what it means, it refers to another part of the male anatomy.

anyway brownbrown i got something to tell you one. but i forgot what i wanted to tell you. hahaha. anyway i don't think you'll be seeing it now, since your mama is still away. rmb to go back to bearbearland to eat okie. just now your uncle-rer was saying you starve liao. so i decided to post here in case you can see this and you'll rmb to go home and eat. hahaha. i'll tell you again when i rmb what i wanted to tell you. hahaha. :D

oh ya i wanted to say something else de. hahah to make jiawen and wingyau plus brownbrown jealous i shall post this. LOL. the other day, i was watching cruel temptation on channel u. then during advertisement macdonalds have the advertisement for the chinese new year beef burger and twister fries. so just then my dad came out to the living room, and i was saying to him "papa i want eat twister fries" then after asking me what issit etcetc then he say "orh 你自己去买啦" so after whining awhile he say " no don't want i don't want to go out" and just then my brother came home. he went out earlier to return book i think. then he bought twister fries back for us leh!!! so nice!! WAHHAHAHAH laugh at brownbrown. see you so sad all alone in london i have twister fries to eat. :D:D and i fed your gorgor and xiaogou also. WAHHAHAHAHA. see you regret going to london now right! told you not to go liao. your mama so bad left you there for such a long period of time and didn't care about you.

okie i shall go and watch cruel temptation liao byee bloggie. :D tmr have training. i'm going to clarify something first before i post something that made me very upset on monday. in case i'm just over-reacting.

hello bloggie :D happy new year! although it doesn't feel like the new year at all. haha was still thinking today is totally the same as yesterday. got a shock when i saw my phone in the morning though. 8 smses leh! hahaha thank you to all those that wished me happy new year. happy new year to you too! haha sorry i didn't reply cuz my sms bao liao. but i doubt those that wished me happy new year will see this. hahaha. :D

anyway went to bukit batok stadium to run this morning. cuz my bro going for his 2.4km test next sat, so must go train. so i very good girl go run also. my bro very lousy leh. he failed his test AGAIN. LOL LOL. hahahaha. then we went teckwhye to eat tim sum. i realised that timsum is very unhealthy. haha. all meat de. after that went home, read newspaper then went to bathe. my dad very bad leh cheat me. he tell me go bathe, so i go bathe. then after i bathe finish he asked me want to go my aunt's house to swim anot. zzzz. -.- so in the end i never bring my swimming stuffs. but the pool very cool leh i really want to go swim. oh ya. my aunt moved house le. haha so today we went housewarming. the living room is very big lah, but the rooms are rather small though.. and they suddenly have alot of pets!! haha. last time already have dog liao, but now zeyuan have a cat also. then there are two tortoises swimming away in the toilet also. haha. hmm. anyway what's the difference between tortoises and turtles ar? one freshwater one seawater right? which one is which ar?

and then after eating and playing cards and then eating icecream (yay i like ice cream :D:D) we went home. hahaha. cuz my bro going somewhere else, so my dad have to send him there. i also dunnoe where lah. somewhere near bukit timah. cuz i was sleeping away. heeeheee. and then i came home and did some chem and here i am :D

anyway i want to talk about the changes to the chinese syllabus. today the newspaper wrote that the government is considering to change the chinese syllabus to something like hanyu shuiping kaoshi (HSK). frankly speaking i think its the wrong move. although alot of ppl don't like chinese now, so they are trying to make it easier such that ppl will like it. but avoidance is never the way to solving a problem. i think that if they change it to the standards of HSK, the standard will seriously drop by ALOT. cuz HSK is meant to test if foreigners can understand normal chinese. and in our case, chinese is our mother tongue, not a foreign language. i sat for the intermediate test in sec3, and seriously i think it was super easy. its like primary school standard. cuz what they test is like listening, then whether you can put in the correct 量词，词语 into a sentence. for a foreigner who just needs to test if they can listen and speak chinese correctly, of course it will be appropriate. but for the chinese, to resort to these kind of standards is seriously demeaning. if that's the case they might as well cut the mother tongues out of the syllabus, and say that chinese is a second language or whatever. so that people can choose whatever language they want to learn. the article keep emphasising that foreigners need at least 4months of study to prepare for the basic test, and even after that it doesn't guarantee them a pass. i think its trying to sound like the test isn't easy. but helloo?? we take at least 10 years of chinese leh. i'm sure its more than enough if that's the case. i'm not very sure how many grades they have, but the highest number cited in the article is 8 lah. so if that's the case, and let's say it takes half a year to take one test, then it should take only 4 years to attain the highest level. so what does the students do for the next 6 years? sit in school and shake leg ar?

and just because people complain that chinese is boring, its too difficult or whatever, that's because they don't even make an attempt to practice it at home or in school or whatever. when does anybody excel without practice. excellence in mathematics, science and english also come about due to practice and practice. if that's the case, does that mean that if alot of people complains that the mathematics syllabus is too difficult, then the government will change the syllabus such that when we are in secondary school we learn primary school standard de math, and when in jc we learn sec school standard? NO RIGHT! so why do we have to lower the standards for chinese simply because parents complain? okie even if they make the standards for pri1, pri2 lower, by letting them learn the simple things first its still not so bad. but not to change the overall standards, i don't see the point lor. maybe in pri 1 pri 2 if the chinese is easier, then people will like it more, that's fine. but eventually they must accept the fact that as they study more, the syllabus will definitely get harder and parents who enjoy whining and complaining about their children in supposedly 名校 that the papers/syllabus is too hard should just shut up.

talking about this reminds me of the PSLE period. every year during PSLE the forum will surely be flooded by letters from parents saying how their children so smart, normally get 90++ etcetc then come back from the paper crying leh! so poor thing! just because they get 90+ usually doesn't mean that they must automatically get 90+ for PSLE lah. 人有失手，马有失蹄 never hear before ar? and if your kid thinks the paper its hard, the other kids will think that its hard also what... since they draw bell curve you should have nothing to worry if your kid really gets 90++ most of the time. still complain and complain. every year also complain complain. seriously. well whatever. okie i shall go read fictionpress. :D byee bloggie!

hello bloggie. just went for 6P gathering :D hahaha alhtough its quite sad so few ppl went, but still its fun :D okie let me recount my week first then i talk about today k. :D

last sunday went eyu's house to continue making minying's present. after making we decided to go and talk to her online. and then when we realised that she's at home very free we suddenly go over to her house to deliver the present. haha. here's a photo of our present :D (to see more photos of the process, go my facebook. haha)


we spent a very long time doing lor!! must find photos, print photos, laminate photos, write messages, thread the beads and letters, make them such that they are of increasing length, stick paper on the ex-lamp, paint the paper, burn the ends of the strings so that they would come out, and finally stick them on! the sticking was the worst. we waited for very long. haha. and then finally we have to hang it such that it can balance. so yong xin right!! and see the messages we all write so long. hahaha. :D i think this is the most meaningful present i've ever given.

so after making we went over to minying's house, then we just spent the day talking and talking about random things. ahha. then we made tang yuan also :D the flour very cool lor. when dry, its white. but after adding water it turns orange (although the packaging cheat us and say that its red. LOL) :D hahaha. i think its really good that we so long never actually meet up liao but we can still talk so much about really random stuffs. (i'll be repeating this sentence again later for today's 6P gathering) haha. and we were very happy chatting with minying's mom also. ahhaha. :D but one thing is me and eyu keep complaining how come minying's house so mafan, still must take bus from mrt. unlike our houses which are so near to the lrt/mrt station. LOL. hahaha :D:D going to eyu and minying's houses brings back fond memories :D hahaha.

okie monday went to school for centad (haix so sian. lol) tuesday stay at home do maths (haix so sian again) then wed went to school for training :D yay but then cuz they renovating central plaza so we not enough space to lian so quite sad. but in the end we went out to the road there to lian. heeheee. my gun still not cooked enough. haix. poor gun. :( and i need to get my stamina back. sian. i do dao do until 3rd duan already no breath liao. can't even jump. haix. and my arm no muscles liao :( sadsad. after zha-ing for 2 duans my arm a bit tired liao lor. and jiaolian says feb is xuan ba liao. ahhhh. i'll be busy with isyf stuffs during jan when am i goign to get the time to lian for xuan ba? then after training went to bukit timah shopping centre to eat lunch. haha. all the girls went to eat lunch together. so exciting! :D cuz we dun like the guys so we don't eat with them. LOL. no lah. jk. anyway so big group also hard to eat together lor. somemore most of the guys going to watch movie, while only 2 girls went to watch movie. so most likely they go to where they watching movie de place to eat lunch, so we don't want go so far thus in the end we went bukit timah sc. haha. after that went to take bus with bihyee, cuz bel went to watch movie and the rest are all taking bus on the other side.

thursday went to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2 with kaiqi and joanna. haha the show is nice. it makes me feel happy. plus the chipmunks are cute. hahaha. then after the movie we went to the basement to buy something to eat and sit down. the main point was the sitting down part. cuz that day was christmas eve, then alot of ppl! so we dun want to ren ji ren. haha. then we sit there and talktalktalk about various stuffs until i had to go for 09S7F's christmas party. hahah while sitting down and talking joanna is very funny. she keep whining and saying shuzong!! and dunyang!! because of the genting trip. haha. so i was like saying eh later they walking past. even worse, if shuzong walks past with his girlfriend, then will be very funny. hahaha. then after that went to take 960 over to alyssa's house. hahah surprisingly i was last for once. but okie lah not whole class is there. but ben so nice lor he walked out to fetch me. haha cuz i know where to get off the bus, but i dunnoe how to walk over to aly's house.. heeehehe. eh then okie although it was a bit sian at first, but afterwards it got more fun. hahaha. especially during double whacko. i lost my voice after that lah.. hahaha. and then i left early cuz my parents came to fetch me le. haha overall quite fun lah. oh and we had a gift exchange too :D

friday stayed at home. i forgot what i did. i think i was reading fictionpress. heeehee. and then saturday morning my bro was helping me to do the math that i dunnoe how to do. then he keep saying i very careless. and then my mom keep scolding me for the paying enough attention while doing my homework.. and made me sad :( hmph i hate it when ppl say i don't put enough effort into doing things. but i was really very careless, although i dun think that means that i didn't put enough effort into it. hmph. after that afternoon went simei for family christmas gathering. my mom's side de. ate too much at the bbq. haha. i felt like puking after eating. haix. okie next time must have better restraints. hahaha. then afterwards we fetched my grandma and her sister back to our home to stay for a night. cuz my dad sending my da yi po home today. and my grandma is still staying for another week or so. haha. so means now my bro moved over to my room to give my grandma his room.

today woke up early to go eat breakfast. after that took lrt to pending station. haha met zhiwei on the lrt, and if he didn't wave to me first i wouldn't have noticed him. cuz i was stoning. hahah. then got off and waited at the bus stop for the others to come. then shaohua and keejia and yuhui came. then we sit there wait very long. cuz we thought bel is coming also. in the end she never come and we couldn't reach her on her phone and nobody has her house no. so we just take the bus to go there. shaohua very pro lor he know east coast park and marine parade and parkway parade like his house like that. hahaha. lihai. lol. then the rest just keep following. hahah. eh then fast forward. after alot of walking we finally meet up with belinda, aida and bel. then gradually youjie, hoongjia came while we were eating macs. haha. after that went to the entertainment place and wait for the guys to play pool while we play mahjong. then after we left it was raining so the guys went to eat macs while we play bridge to wait for the rain to stop. hahah. the whole of today we went to macs alot of time. hahaha. after that went bowling alley, then while hoongjia, yuhui and shaohua played bowling we were just sitting there playing snapjack. but its super entertaining seeing belinda lose. haha her reaction very slow!! LOL. even after cutting her deck by half and half and half and halves alot of time she still end up the overall loser. hahaah. and while we were playing weisheng came.

then when the guys finished bowling we went to rent bikes. :D and then we go cyclecycle while bel and hoongjia was roller blading (hehehe cue evil laughter). haha. hoongjia very action lor. he whole day do the spin around thing on his skates. hahaha. no wonder bel and keejia say he like show luo zhi xiang like that. hahaha. ooh but hoongjia is nice. he brought ferrero rocher for everyone :D :D simply because of this i shall say he's nice. hahahah. okie lah i not so easily bribed, but he helped to organise also. not bad lah. :D:D ooh ohh did i say this before? got one day i was chatting to hoongjia on msn, then me being a nice reflective bear decided to thank him for helping to organise. cuz a few posts ago i was saying how shunxiang was saying thanks to me for helping to organise cc chalet and how it felt really good when ppl thank you right. so i decided to thank him also. then he was saying how surprised he was. cuz apparantly last time i always scold him for being irritating. ( i where got lor i so nice one??!! haha. really lor i dun rmb at all. okie maybe i got scold him but i dun rmb why le lah. cuz frankly speaking my temper has never been very good. haha) hmm. so ya something to reflect on again. and i realised i never thanked bel for organising also! oops. haha. cuz we see each other too often liao. haha. okie later i shall go post on class blog. haha.

oh anyway after the night cycling during cc chalet, i realised today we cycle super slow. seriously. my legs weren't even tired after cycling. plus we were going so slow i was sweating. haha. i didn't even feel my muscles stretch lah. hahaha. maybe cause today a lot of traffic. haha. then after that we went to sit down, and after taking some photos and playing vball we went to parkway parade for dinner. but so zhun it started raining. so we cabbed over. haha parkway parade was the place where we went to for dinner after wushu comps! haha. :D not bad today i go so many place explore. hahah. then we went to the food court to eat dinner, cuz aida was there and most of the place they suggested was non-halal. oh ya anyway at the time when there was the most people there were 12 of us(abit pathetic, considering 6P'04 has 41 students, but nvm lah. so many years liao still can have 12 not bad le.): aida, belinda, christabel, keejia, me, josias, youjie, hoongjia, zhiwei, yuhui, shaohua, weisheng. then after eating some ppl left, then the rest went to orchard to walkwalk. at first they want go sing karaoke one, but then when i went there the thing is for 4 hours leh. then i dun want cuz it was already 7++. 4 hours means 11++ then can go home. too late le lah better not. then ppl back out back out end up only 5, so they decided not to go also. haha.

so we were just walking about, then we decided to go shaw centre drink milk tea. haha. bel's idea. haha. then we were just sitting there and drinking ( i wasn't. cuz me being a good bear don't want to fall even sicker. haha so i didn't drink. i just kop bel and belinda's one. ahaha) and playing bridge. haha. then finally bel won and we can go home. LOL. so took 190 back home with belinda, bel, keejia, yuhui and youjie. hoongjia went off somewhere, dunnoe where. haha. anyway he can't take 190 with us since he stays in clementi(i think. last time it was clementi. dunnoe whether he moved anot) and on the bus we were chatting and chatting. :D :D so good lor we so many years never see liao still got so much to say. shows that our friendship is quite strong. hahaha. and then youjie and keejia keep saying how being half-hainanese is very good. ahem. haha. lol. then cuz they were saying i very tanned. and then i was saying eh can't help it. i last went swimming 1 month ago, but now still as tan. then they say cuz i not related to them. zzz. hahaha. okie. whatever~ LOL. okie lah i tired liao byee bloggie. i'm going to post on class blog then i can go sleep liao. cya another time bloggie :D

刚刚去了异攸的部落阁，看了她写的一段感想，突然也想到这里。 时间一直在流失，而我，却不曾珍惜过时间。 以前，我的生活中充满了规律。早上起来我知道我今天到底要做什么。如今，虽然知道有一大堆功课要做，却总是找借口不要做。 不仅对不起我自己，也对不起我父母。 可能是因为长大了，但若是长大是这样的，我宁愿不要长大。 我甚至连和boyboy玩的时间都浪费了。

自制力，也随着时间流失了。

身体老是感觉不对劲，于是就处处为自己找借口。与其如此，不如承认自己的错误？前些日子在玩绝代双交前传的时候，看到了一句令人感触良深的话： 只要问心无愧，挺胸面对问题，成败与否，名利皆如浮云。 我们的社会，把名利，成功看的如此重要。但我们又何时在寂静的夜晚想一想，自己做的事是否对得起天地良心？ 我们是否问心无愧？与其处处想要讨好人家，不如想想自己是否在为自己而活。

前几天，在刚要进电梯回家的时候， 感觉到了一阵凉风。 忽然，感觉轻飘飘的，世界多美好啊！ 但几秒后，意识到了电梯在等我，那时的感触就此没了。为什么我们就不能停下来，体会一下这个世界的所有呢？总是追求着得不到的东西，却从不珍惜自己已有的东西。还亏我们人类自认为多么聪明的一族。